Catherine-Ann / Pure-Grace
Nov. 30, 2021
TO BLOG, OR… NOT TO BLOG?
Monday, Nov. 29, 2021 10:38 PM
I've registered with an on line support group. I'm still working out the glitches for signing in. It's a mentor group, so I can choose who I want to chat with, according to their journey through cancer. There are other options, but this one seems right for now.
Happy to say that the very dark time I was experiencing last week, has passed. I don't know why I try to figure out 'why' I feel so low, whenever I do. I do think a big part this time, was the relentless neck spasms wearing me down. Thanks to physio twice a week, I'm getting more mobility & strength, which means better sleep.
So, about this blog? The day I got the diagnosis of cancer, in the quiet time I spent afterward, I got the clear message to start a blog, having little or no idea how to go about it, or what it would mean. This week, I got a renewal notice, because it will be one whole year in a few weeks.
With life settling down considerably, from the busy schedule since surgery, though chemo & radiation, I'm not sure what I'll have to share. Obviously, there is still a lot of healing for me to go through. I am getting a little stronger each day, and at the moment feeling a lot more hopeful about the weakness & fatigue gradually not having such power over my life as I've experienced, especially since treatments ended.
From the get go, (the day I got the news) I clearly heard God say that He would use the suffering I had to go through, for the sake of helping others. I must say that Larry & I have had an ever present consciousness of the bounty of prayers of so many and the abundant grace that carried us through what one would expect to be: frightening, anxious and uncertain events and times. We have been grateful throughout this journey, and that is the most common feedback we've had. Many have shared with us that they have adopted an attitude of gratitude after realizing that it was lacking in their lives. Also, they've told us of the positive difference a spirit of gratitude has made overall. In no way am I boasting on my own, about anything, because I know that any & all goodness that has come from what I've shared, is by the gift of God's grace.
At first, I thought it may help someone who might possibly go through medical treatments similar to mine, giving them encouragement, and a friend to lean on. I know that a few of you have graciously shared your own cancer journey with me, which helped me so much, especially in the beginning, when everything was so unfamiliar & uncertain.
A friend asked if she could forward to other women, my blog about procrastinating in going to the doctor when I first had signs that something was wrong. She has since shared with me that it was the nudge someone needed, which resulted in a serious diagnosis that needed immediate attention.
So this is the 'Do I keep blogging?' discernment week. I'll let you know, when I know!
God bless you. Thank you so much for your love, care and encouragement. I hope that I have, in some way, been a gift to you, as you have been and are to me. xoxoxo