Jan. 30, 2021

SURGERY DATE - Friday, February 19th

  Today the Cancer Clinic called with a date for surgery - Friday, February 19th.   I'll have one more appointment with them. And UBC hospital will let me know on the 18th, what time the surgery will be.
    I've noticed that each time I have a 'serious' communication with the Cancer Clinic or test, my knees turn to jelly. I don't have clear thoughts or fears, just 'foggy brain' at the time! At first I was excited to get a date that is sooner than expected, but once the 'lovely' person finished giving me all the info, the moments after hanging up, were the yuckiest I've experienced so far.  I already woke up at 6:00 feeling 'fluish'. I'm having a bout of severe back pain, and think that's why my stomach was upset.
  As 'The Day has now been set, of course it's become very real. I can't say that unwanted scenarios haven't been trespassing on my peace of mind, but…. I make the decision throughout the day to live in the moment and, accept and enjoy whatever the day brings. 
     It feels like Larry & I have been on vacation since Christmas, with all the wonderful day-trips we've enjoyed. Between retirement & Covid 19 restrictions, we find this time quite stress free. I absolutely do not take for granted the blessing of a wonderful husband. We're so grateful for this time, which has been a great gift to us. It's very helpful that we not only 'love' each other, but really 'like' each other (99.9% of the time)!
   I am grateful for soooooooo much!  God has made my heart full, with love and prayers for you. I am grateful for You! God bless you!