Saturday, February 13, 2021 12:43 AM

    I wouldn't be honest if I only showed you smiling pictures. Today was a day that I just couldn't rise from the darkness. The 'choice' to be happy today hit some serious snags. Trying to figure it out, I'm pretty sure the overwhelming emotions I experienced today got triggered yesterday afternoon when I went for an ultrasound for my thyroid. The two most tender spots for fibromyalgia are below the collar bone on the sternum. It takes very little pressure to create severe pain. Well! Isn't that precisely where the ultrasound instrument spent a lot of time seriously probing. Last evening I felt wasted, which carried on this morning. By noon, my brain hurt, I didn't want to talk to anyone, by whole body was exhausted & dragging. I don't know why I wonder why I'm feeling whatever form of pain or fatigue the fibromyalgia has taken on. It has a mind of its own, and most of the time I manage to not mind it, but today it won!

  I began my day with prayer, scripture reflection and Mass on line. What I really appreciated was hearing Fr. Mark say "Let's pray for everyone who is praying for us!"  YES! That's what I do, especially with so many prayers being said on my behalf at this time.

  I did made chicken soup to freeze and a few dessert cups for Valentines, but that was my day pretty much. Tonight, we joined a Zoom gathering for Cursillo. I didn't feel like it, but am really grateful I did, as Alfredo told the story of the 'reason for his joy'.

  I am looking forward to Sunday, when my cousins and aunts will get together on zoom for a 'Remember When!'  The time is right for sure, with so much excitement stirring from the wonderful nostalgic photos being posted every day by the hard work of my 2 aunties finding many gems. The 'Aunts & Nieces' used to gather every six weeks at someone's home, years ago. Always so much fun and wonderful to be together. Gathering virtually, is allowing us to be together from far and near.

  It's late, but I didn't want to not share this day, that thankfully I've gotten through, and feeling much less pained than I did earlier. 'This too shall pass!'… and it has.

  By the way! I got a call today with the date of my scheduled pre-op orientation. 'We're grateful that we don't have to drive in to Vancouver for the appointment, which is what we were previously told. A nurse will call me at 7:15 am on Thursday.

  Thank you for your prayers. God bless you. xoxoxo