Monday, February 22, 2021

    I am trying to keep entering blog updates at least every other day, to inform family and friends of my situation regarding testing, treatments and day to day overall physical, mental & spiritual health. For now, it's absolutely the only way to keep those who want to know… in the know!

   My nature is to respond to people who message me in any way, as quickly as I can, especially if they sound worried. That is certainly on hold for now. And although each message is filled with love, and words of concern and support, I have realized over the last day, that repeating my story, as I try to answer a number of messages, unfortunately is taking its toll. A couple of friends have boldly told me "It's not your job to take care of anyone else right now! You don't have to respond, that's why you have a blog!" That's hard for me, but necessary for now!

   For one who has had extremely limited Facebook interaction, (thumbs up & happy faces, etc.) this new way of communicating was really a big step. I got the nudge to start the Blog, trusting that there is a higher purpose than offering the 'daily news'! I've already seen the fruit by what people have shared in how parts of my journey that have helped them in their own challenges. I certainly hope that will continue as the future unfolds.

   I'll say for now, that I just can't respond to messages coming in, for the time being. Although the physical pain I experience is quite minimal, the fatigue and weakness remind me of what my body has undergone. I certainly hope you do not feel obliged to send anything in order for me to know that you care, (as someone has apologized for). I undoubtedly and gratefully know that I am loved and I do appreciate you accompanying me in this journey by holding me in your own hearts and prayers. 

   I wasn't sure that I wanted to send this today, concerned that I was being a 'cranky pants'! But it’s the truth of what I'm experiencing, and for several hours today I have been feeling overwhelmed, with the texts & emails asking how we're doing, without having checked the blog. So, please do not feel obliged to check in often, or at all, if you are not inclined, but if at any time you wonder how things are, the answer will likely be found by clicking on to the blog.

  I humbly ask for your patience with me. Please know that you are a big part of the reason we are doing so well on this journey, knowing how loved we are and carried by the grace you contribute to.

  God bless you. xoxoxo